Pool day

I went swimming for a bit last week.
Floating on my back and looking up at the clouds I tried to somehow block out the sounds of those around me. I embraced the illusion that I was alone and in a wide expanse of deeper waters.

I watched the clouds in the sky appear to roll by and pushed out every thought, worry and problem; focusing on keeping afloat.

Unfortunately, this serenity didn't last for long. It's difficult to hang on to the Straight Arrows of adulthood when being immersed in water reminds me of my fondest childhood memories.

I'd say it's the second place I've been to this year that made me feel completely comfortable. And the first in a while.

I shall definitely go back.
Often.

An Accident

Do you value your life? What about you neighbors'?


I work nights; and when lucky - I finish early and get a few hours to sleep or surf the net, listen to music or hold philosophical discussions to my hearts delight.

So I'm sitting next to a large window uploading a video on Youtube when I hear tires screeching across asphalt. Hmm, that's not quite right.

-The air is filled with the sound of maddening speed attempting to decelerate to zero in less than a second. Every muscle in my aches and I turn to the right to look out the window. To catch a glimpse of the offending car and perhaps abuse them for such needlessly forceful 5am driving.

Instead I see a silver car ramming into and overturning a wine one, causing it to do a complete one 180 - with the help of a curb. The sound of the crash is sickening and I barely have enough cognitive power available to mute my laptop and close the lid as I stand - hand to mouth to stare helplessly at the scene. By this time the silver car has turned completely around, giving me a full view of its bashed front end.

A man in a white shirt and tie steps out, as does a bathroom slipper-ed driver. The walk slowly around the cars and the driver seems to consider his life.

I cannot claim to have a clear view of his facial expression from 2 stories up, but his body language seems to shout synonyms of 'woe is me'.

The tie-d owner of the Silver Bashed Front starts calling...someone via his cell.

A crowd quickly forms. They meander and speculate before someone has the bright idea to check the Wine Overturned for signs of life. A man is pulled out of a window a lies sprawled on the ground. The ever thicken crowd closes in a every so often, a gap forms in the mass of gabbing onlookers and I can see someone tapping the body.

The co-worker beside me takes hold of me, possible unaware, and I angle a nearby seat closer to her. Sure enough she soon sits down, moaning about the injustice of it all. A man may be dead and Why did they wait so long to check on him?

He eventually sits up and the floodgates of tears subside. Not before a round of pacing on her part.

A full 20 minutes after a curiously labeled white truck pulled up to the site, the crowd cries 'rush this man to the hospital' and he is loaded into the aforementioned vehicle and carted away. This is all after he sits up, speaks and lays back down again.

* The first car I saw after the accident happened drove right by.
* A co-worker mentioned a person leaving the Wine Overturned and sprinting away.
* We all, from the relative safety of our office, could only murmur suggestions or stare. Some ventured outside to investigate the damage.


Lord knows I don't have much else to say about that.

Here's to life when you have it. May you have it in abundance and appreciate it while it lasts.

-I wrote this on Thursday morning. It happened at about 5am. -

Lucky 13....

I remember when missing TRL was my idea of a problem

I've got a lot of things on my mind and it just dawned on me that my inability to solve certain issues has been a lack of perspective.

So I'll be working on that and praying for direction. Lord knows I need it.

In light of that, I can't think of anything worth writing, really.
Except that my birthday is coming up fast and as it approaches, trepidation more than anticipation fills me like ice water poured too quickly into a glass.... spililng over to ruin place settings and embarrasing a unsuspecting dinner guests.

Oy.

-Found out about a pool/gym situation via work. This looks like the beginning of something swell.

Silver linings, however faint, abound. Here's to 'em.

Eek! It's practically August!

I'm so out of practice writing, its sad. I feel like a parched fish who has shuffled across a beach and finally come into contact with water.

And so I rant.

A while ago my sister gave me a movie to watch; August Rush. It quite possibly will live with The Princess Bride and The People Beneath the Stairs in my book. Twas all kinds of lovely - and not just because Jonathan Rhys Meyers was a major feature. Not that I wouldn't watch and hour and a half of him looking thoughtfully at me from a large screen...or endure him trespassing about with whats-her-name from The O.C in a vampire flick. (Octane )

He can't help the fact that he's blo'y beautiful. And in this movie he Sings! Tis like Christmas.

He and ....the title character from Felicity ...Keri Russell birthed the wide-eyed Charlie from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, who happens to be a musical prodigy. The whole flick is how their son gets to New York to try and find his parents and how the parents find each other – mixed in with just a smidge of 'New York reality' and a Whole bunch of music. Much like a dance-less musical, but I didn't complain. And Terrence Howard is in it too.


Did I mention how smoking hot Jonathan Rhys Meyers is? First off, his eyes...I mean, then his accent.... Heaven on any size screen, I'll tell you that much.
- - -

I work the night shift. The graveyard shift. The feels-nice-in-the-morning-to-go-home-while-You-are-going-to-work shift. Hoo-ahh.

Pretty much 5pm – 5am and as luck would have it, a bit of scheduled Training had us night folks staying till 8, 8:30 for two days. Would you believe I haven't fully recovered? I'm not so much wadding through a perpetual fog as floating numbly in murky waters. I need a tall glass of Rest.

TGIF indeed.

- -- --

I really want to go swimming. Nay, I dare say I even require it.

My bathing suit is all ready, who has a pool?


-Here's to keeping promises, and sleep.

Hmm

Dilbert, July 22, 2009



I'm kick-starting myself back into blogging. So before the month is out, I'll rant properly. And I think Dilbert is awesome

Mr. (you know who you are) I better see an update from you soon...

To You, you and you.....

I've been at my job for a month. I Officially Hate desk jobs. Sorry I've been so silent, trying to fix my Work/Life Balance.
This is to.... some of my fellas..

I liked you. A lot.
Part of me didn't want to, but our apparent similarities somehow caused us to be.
For a while. Until you got tired, though to hear you say it would likely be much more poetic.
Funny thing is that I knew from the beginning that it wouldn't end as.slightly intended.
No stroll through the park of Romance on a summer afternoon is Enhanced by first dissecting each others person on a Freudian red couch avec timer and quizzical smile.
Adieu, though it saddens me.
Sure I've lost a friend.

I hate you. Immensely.
And I love you terribly at the same time.
You're the reason an entire country was on my No-Go list and seeing your traits in others inspires contempt.
No matter how shiny, how large, how rare my diamonds are, they might as well be coal to your expectations.
And though its salt on a fresh wound to care what you think, I still do.
Working on severing this tie.


I'm sorry. Really.
I think I thought I had some concept of what I wanted something and I transposition-ed them unto you.
Truly feel like I wasted a year of your life; hoping that I learned a bit during that year in mine.
Quite sure you'll be just fine.
We were Incompatible from day one.

You. Are a Jerk!
And yet you're so adorable I frequently overlook it.
Thanks for teaching me how not to fall, by attempting to bring me down, no less. Thank God for the wise counsel of friends.
I fully expect and invite to the Free Cake and Rice day that'll be your wedding.
Someday.

You don't deserve the space it'd take to acknowledge you properly. I throw up.

You stupid, stupid, Stupid....!!!
Why did you have to be emotionally attached to another? Why did she have to be Acceptable to me? Why did you feel the need to Tell me about it!??
Alas, we would have make terrible lovers.
Settling for 'Long Distance Friends'

I liked you. So Much.
Its downright ridiculous.
The entire thing was like some movie.
And the audience shouted commands to me the whole time.
…didn’t they know that people on 16ft big screens can’t talk back.
Well.

You. Are So Fine. You don't even know. In too many ways.
Honestly. I don't think you do. Which, of course, makes you like the last scoop of ice cream on a Hot Summer day.
Blo'dy Irresistible.
I hope your girlfriend knows this.

My Ride-or-Die-Niggas
You know I've got nothing but love for you.
Keep your head up Baby, the sun'll come out tomorrow.
Besides, we have to be around to see each others kids grow up.
-If even in pictures only.

You were like a Knight at the Round Table of life and I felt like that girl they send for water basins.
Sure the distance wasn’t Entirely in my mind, but you saw me just the same.
You Get me and I'm not letting go.
You are like Spring to me and we are full of possibilities.
Caramel...

I love You.
You are the Only One who understands me - likely because you hold the blueprints.
May I grow to Love you more, may I be who You want me to be; and not mess up the opportunities You bring my way.
-Amen


-Here's to doing what you're supposed to do, when you're supposed to do it.
And to Living Your Life - ala T.I. & Rhi

I'm in an Odd Mood Today...

I wanted to rant. Tirade really, but as things are - and happen, life did what it does. And so copy and paste a Poem by E. E. Cummings I did.
Because I can.


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- Here's to the looks on all your faces, because I know its there.
And thanks for the Love (well, those who gave it), I'm on a hiatus now, Daily Grind'll start in less than a Fortnight.

Oh Snap, its February!??!

I'm not Dead.

Honest.

I got a job, (yaaay!), and lost my internet connecy (boooo!) so I've been, well, you understand.

I'd type something wonderful but I just do not have the time. Will shed light on that perhaps when I have a connecy to call my own again.

- Ah, Vals weekend was nice. Hope all of ya'll lovebirds maintain the truth that everyday should be Valentines Day...

And because I failed to give you anything, I'll direct you to my Archives....if you wish, lol, and two blogs that may just be a part of your Blogroll in the future.

http://auria-ally.blogspot.com/
http://coherentwhole.blogspot.com/

- Here's to Laughter. I guarantee you, it heals the Soul. :*

Happy? New Year

To those you played along with the 'quiz', twas actually a Personality Test of sorts.

-Here's hoping the holiday went well...


1. Cow is career,
horse is family,
pig is money,
sheep is is love and
tiger is pride.

How you arrange the animals is supposed to show the order in which you value those things

2.What you put for dog is how you see yourself, your personality
cat is your partner,
rat is your enemy,
coffee is sex and
sea is your life

3. Yellow is the person you'll never forget,
orange is your true friend,
red is the person you really love,
white is your twin soul OR soul mate and
green is the person you'll always remember OR person that can teach you a lot about yourself.

Here's to the random memories of before.
The ones that catch you unexpectedly, floating on the air
Stuck to a sound, a song, a word.
Here's to 'em.

Oh Blo'y Freakin' A!!

Hi Hi! What's been up with cha!?!! Hope all's good.
Cuz life's Swell!! (Breakfast Club style)

I'm overcompensating, cuz I'm in a crap mood at the Moment. But I'm thinking Positively!!
Go me, and whatnot! Down with confusing courses! (I'mma gonna git ya...)

...moving On!

I have No time to Blog. I shouldn't even be here! But, I'm Positive that I won't spend Too much time blog Running and all that... On account of my Me-Ness!

Yeah.

So I have an activity for you, Honored Guest :) Kinda like a quiz....I copped it! Caused Quite a Hullabaloo in class...
Answers will be revealed when all Participating Members have completed the Task at Hand!!!

So Here. Go!

1. Read my last post and Drop a comment if you haven't already :) [Shameless plug :D]

2. Leave a comment to This post with the following:
a) Arrange the following 5 animals in order of your preference:
cow horse pig sheep tiger


b) Next to each word in the following list, write the first 5 Adjectives that come to mind:
dog -
cat -
rat -
coffee -
sea -


c) Next to each color in the following list, write the name of the first person (blogger, someone you know well, etc..) that comes to mind:
yellow -
orange -
red -
white -
green -

3. Get up and Dance. Crib walk, Runner man, something. Life can be stressful, how much more so if you Stay Still?!!




Here's to....uh...Big Boats! and...Swimming Pools!! Oh and Chocolate, I raise my glass in a toast to Chocolate!! Mmm mmm. And Skittles!!!

Here's also to Random Capitalization and Excessive use of Exclamation marks! And copping stuff... Here's to that! And Blog Runs! Which is what I'm going to do Right Now!!

Oh, here's also to you! Cheers! Smile! Jesus loves ya!!

p.s. No spilling the Beans if you know the answers. That just wouldn't be Kosher.

A Morning Headache

- I wrote this at 10.25am no disrespect meant, I wasn't in a receptive mood during a presentation, and so...


Fade cut
and he "speaks so well"
I wonder if he listens.
Bound inside his black suit
is self defined charisma.

Do you care if my head's on fire
and threatens to
explode?
And temples throb and pulse
and all?
Body Temp begins to fall.

- You say we're quiet and don't talk.
You stole the floor.
Try to open it up.

Okay...its open
but must you shout?
Because your words bounce off
the inside of my skull.
Like banging drums and clanging bells,
a falling chandelier.
I put my thumbs above my ears.

Pressure
...carries me to...here?
Where the breeze blows past my face.
Sun hugs.
Feet trailing in cool water.
Birds chirp - the sound of children playing.
Home.

Until the throbbing starts anew
- setting sun
biting cold.
whipping wind
warmth shuns....


-Here's to....that moment just before a jump off the high dive, the high-speed blender mix of Should I and I Shouldn't. And making people smile. Here's to that.

Heels

I have a pair of heels that I wore once, to a wedding.
And I danced the night away in a Old Skol, so smooth style.

And my feet regetted it.
My pinkie toe was barely spared.

And I wore these shoes to work.
- No dancing, I figured I was safe.
Some walking.
- I thought all would be good.
Flights of stairs.
- Tis part of the agreement.

By the end, well, If my ankles could cry
My pinkie shout and the sides weep.

They would hoot and holler and moan
Something would break
Things would be thrown.

But someone said 'you be chick now'
And so, sans grinning, I bear it.

And today, I wear flats.
:)

-Heres to.....um, um. Music! All kinds, whatever style. Take a minute or two outta your day to Dance. Just a little. (Find a safe space to do it ;) )